So today was an intresting day with my friend whose last name I promise to pronounce correct and learn some better magic tricks.
I suppose that these last two days have been some kind of a trial and it is much more worthwhile to open up on here then open my wrists.
Life is well intresting and I suppose that I wouldnt change any of the events that have led up to the advent of writing this blog at 3 AM.
I am feeling so guiltly and down and that I am beyond hope and so small and that everything is just Yeah, I suppose that more then ever I find myself looking to my friends for support and I know that I will ask too much of them and go on about my problems.
But
I
Am
Just so pissed off and feel completled trapped and confused like I am some demented puppet dancing a dance of misery/happiness depending on my mood and my Beloved cannot understand that at the minutie and that hurts and I feel that even second everything is changing how she feels towards me and i feel more and more like the Love Me Or Kill Me theory i dicussed at the start of this week. I feel so very confused about who I am let me hope for a Saner life tommorow.
With Jelly Babies
I also started writing a book thats a tour of my very twisted and totally unique but annoying to others mind.
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