Complex

A word used to describe something challange or well complex
This is how I feel and I just feel so angry and unable to contain my emotions
I wish someone could recuse me
I wish you could see me and not look away in fear my love.
Just look and see the man you loved he is still there and wants to be taken in your arms
I hate thinking like this and everything being dark
I dunno I just dunno how I feel
I just wish someone would save me and take me far away and I could fall into there arms and just sleep.
Sleep would be awesome at 1 in the morning as
would some understanding and a fez.
I would love someone to tell me why Im feeling these very Complex emotions
Its like one minuite I sat there this evening smiling and jumping and now Im laying in bed all alone and crying
I dont want too be normal far from it in fact I LOVE my insanity
I just wish I could control my emotions
And keep them all locked away so
they couldnt harm or upset anyone
I hate upsetting people
I just dont want
to be alone again
in the dark without
the love that youve
shown me
I wish I could smile about the future and dream of our wedding and me amusing you over some stupid joke but I CANT do that can.
I try so hard to understand.
But I Cant Im not a normal person
Im a failure and I wish I could understand you and take you far away from your problems.
I wish for that and I try but I am fucked up and for that I am sorry.
Just Remember: Once youve established life is a horrible nightmare, You have to live it with as much freedom happiness and joy as you can.
Please someone open the curtians and someone not fear me on the other side of them