This year I've met a number of people: An American, A Geek (who would be proud of the title and my use of commas), 3 Cynics a new best friend, one of the most coolest gamer people I know and an artist and you guys have meant the world too me and changed my life tremendously and for that I am truly grateful and thankful for. Yes I know I am difficult, eccentric, crazy and a little blind to the world around me and a little bit too self harmy. So this blog is for you you unique marvellous lights that light up my world please give yourself a pat on the backs Now.
So with the Praise over, I hoped you all enjoyed it we come to some kind of rambling the kind I do best, At present I feel alone loneir then Ive ever been is that normal when youve had a yeah of people who care so so deeply about you but now I just
I feel lonely
I feel a Failure
I have let others done
I am afraid
I feel like a King but of a wasteland that I cant understand and control my feelings are darker and i am scared of the dark.
Threapy is hard it is reporgramming me but I am scared of into what
My nan is hospital and it wont work and I HATE MYSELF
I HATE WHO I AM
I HATE MY IDENDITY AND LACK OF IT ALL I AM UNSTABLE AND NO ONE CARES
