This I suppose is the relationship I end up forming with the majority of people in life,
I find that people find me difficult for being well too over aplogetic, too random or too sorry and Im sorry about that, oh and I make terrible puns and jokes as well as you will find.
This weekend was lovely with my Girlfriend it was lovely and calm and we had a really nice time together which has made a change and she says that she feels happier but I do feel we live in the "love me or hate me" caterogy that I just created to explain my feelings about people and me, because we do love each other but I feel that I have to be so totally perfect and that if I do something wrong then I am a let down and that I have to be obdient and that my opinon does not always matter granted that we get on more but I suppose that I worry that I have to do everything her way or no way and that she loves the control that I give her and I just suppose that I am scared that I have to do everything her way because I cannot be that I love her completly but I have the right to be me and sometimes that creates love and the other time that creates hate and I just am nervous that this wont last this happiness any more.
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