So today has all days has been different and the same in this loose weave of knowledge we call life and other events. Im trying to improve my writing and self expression in general so be prepared for crazy thoughts to be presented in a slighty more normal light (As you can sarcasm is not going away from my writing just yet) So after a weekend witrh my girlfriend we talked and cried and I got angry and I know I am hard to live with and that my life does impact and hurt others and yes I know that I can be difficult and selfsih and I try not too be but I know things are looking up well I am things dont really look.
This week I learnt and am still learning the meaning of friends.
Friends are all a funny topic to me because it is hard for me too feel safe around people due to the over arching and terrorising fear that rules and runs my life with me as its twisted puppet.
Its all very wierd learning about ones self espically when you dont know where to look for a look at your past life.
Its even harder when you cant decide if you want to erase it all or keep it in the front of your mind.
Finding me will be hard as hard as trying to feel to contecnt but i fell that i find the me where I was happiness then everything will follow maybe kind of who knows
Anyway thats another rant over
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